I used to wonder what it would be like to be married or to be a mom. I would often think about traveling to places far beyond the confines of my childhood neighborhood in New Jersey. I never wondered what it would be like to have all of these things at once.
In the span of 10 months I became pregnant (January), engaged (February), unemployed (April) by choice), married (July), and an expatriate living in a foreign country (August). It has Tilt-A-Whirl-ish and we believed the end of all of this would be this last week when our daughter Rafaella Rubio was born on October 7. We quickly realized… this was just the beginning.
The truth is, having all of the things I ever wanted has been thrilling… but also exhausting and scary. I was horribly heartbroken to leave my family but excited about the possibilities that awaited me in a new country with no job and an opportunity to stay home and begin my writing career. I was nervous to become a mother but couldn’t help and wonder what she would look like, sound like, smell like, be like.
There will always be things I miss back home (my family, Starbucks, fall weather). There are things that will be different in each new place we hope to experience but looking forward into a somewhat unknown future with Husband and starting a family fills my heart with hope and unbelievable joy. Through all of the peaks and valleys of emotion, Husband and I keep wondering if this is really happening? Are we really starting to live the life that we always wanted? Yes, we are. We are living a good life of our making and are prepared to drink every last drop of this fine bottle of life. So, welcome to drinking the whole bottle
Hopelessly I feel like there might be something that I’ll miss
Hopelessly I feel like the window closes oh so quick
Hopelessly I’m taking a mental picture of you now
‘Cuz hopelessly the hope is we have so much to feel good about
Oh this has gotta be the good life
This has gotta be the good life
This could really be a good life, good life
Say oh, got this feeling that you can’t fight
Like this city is on fire tonight
This could really be a good life.. a good, good life
… Sometimes there’s bullshit that don’t work now
We are God of stories but please tell me
What there is to complain about